ok. what a day.
I hesitated writing coz i dunno whether this deserves a post. but i think it’s a good learning point so i’ll write it down anyway.
So many ppl got shortlisted to med. and i havent heard anything. now i know how it feels. it sucks.
i dunno what am i supposed to feel right now. hopeful? haha. others will always say positive things. but that’s just what you are supossed to do. I dunno also why i’m thinking too much abt this. is it too much?
like seriously. there is nothing i can do right now. NOTHING. till monday. that’s quite a long wait. haha.
I can just conviniently calm myself down by whatever others say: “maybe it’s the hostel mail sorting thing?” (doesnt work. I sort all the mail that comes to hostel. ALL. EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM.)
“something wrong with the post system.” (doesnt work either, someone in hostel get it. means mail can actually get sorted correctly and come to hostel in time)
or I can also be positive and give myself all kind of excuses like wait till monday, maybe it’s just not your cup of tea, maybe God wants me to do other things. it’s tiring trying to be positive. really.
Honestly, I just feel like screaming.
oh and the funny thing is that I still act as though I couldn’t care less. that’s just what I do all the time actually.
there’s one good thing that comes out of this whole situation. not sure whether that’s counted as a good thing though.
oh I’ve just realised that I wrote about “good learning point” at the beginning of this post. that’s me TRYING to be positive.
