wah. seriously. there’s something wrong with me.
I still dare to hope.
when the lady specifically said "All of the letters have been sent out on 18th April. You can check your online application status, and if you are shortlisted you’ll see a link specifying your interview date. If you are not shortlisted it will not appear at all."
then I went to check. and obviously there’s nothing on my page. (not that i’m expecting anything. i’ve checked it before I called)
and here I am still daring to hope.
hoping that there is something wrong with the mail thing. and when I go down to office in 1o mins time, i’ll find it there. HAHA.
I think I spend way too much time thinking what if I get in. rather than what if I don’t.
and in the midst of writing this i’m still hoping. can you believe that?
Be wary of your own confidence. it kills. You are not better than anyone else. you are not even as good.
This is the part where there are two voices playing in you head (and you think that you may lose your mind).
A: "maybe you’ll get it"
B: "dream on"
A: "there is nothing wrong with being positive"
B: "yea right. don’t blame me if you get more dissapointed in the end"
A: "I won’t. then i’ll just know that I’m meant to do other things"
B: "HAHA. don’t try to bluff yourself. you know you’re just saying that because that’s the right thing to say"
I’ll go down and check the letter now. and i’ll post again which side wins the battle. Does being positive pay? we’ll see.
