ok. i dun normally blog when i’m at work. (but i don millions of other things…). aniwae.. I was just pleasantly reminded to what I really enjoy doing. And it was really fun. I can’t help but feeling that I am making/will make a wrong choice. But yeah.. as they say.. just leave it to God.
ok. I’m supposed to write an essay for NTU apps, and i’ve chosen the title "What is the proudest achievement in your life?". No doubt, the proudest achievement to date will be SYF Gold with Honours. (YAY!)
But i can’t seem to put it in 300 words. I find it hard to even start writing about it actually. Perhaps it’s because there’s too much to be said, and I think my poor writing skills will make the whole thing sound overly cliche, or mundane, or even arrogant? hmmm…
I shall list down the things I feel/want to write here first.
1. We grow from a Silver ensemble to GWH ensemble in 4 yrs!
2. We were really2 lousy the first time I joined guitar (really!). (oops no offence to e seniors), but we really do get better over the years. and we play better pieces
3. People used to look down on guitar, (they didn’t even believe that we got gold for syf in 2005)
4. oh and we achieved the first gold on 2005. yay!
5. we actually grow as a cca (in terms of exco, junior training, ppl feel more sense of belonging to guit , i think.)
6. Almost everyone didn’t know how to play guitar in the beginning, but we always manage to achieve our goals (syf, concert, etc.)
7. It is really2 great to see those ppl you train being able to teach others and assume leadership position, (and probably doing it better than yourself)
8. We do so much by ourselves (interpreting the pieces, developing emotions, those were the toughest part..)
ok so actually i dun really know why it is the proudest achievement. it’s just that after being there for 4 years, I’m so glad that we could achieve smth like this.. I didn’t even think we could get gold on 2005 syf.. it’s like, the feeling of satisfaction to know that whatever you have done in e past 3.5 years has made a difference to the ensemble. (I dunno how much difference that is, but I can say that I think i’ve contributed to my best ability). Hm..
" Dont cry because it’s over, smile because it happened."
What a nice quote. something that we should remember everyday.
It’s 1.10 am and I suddenly feel like blogging. Maybe it’s because the exciting night I had. (haha office can be quite exciting sometimes)
Ok. My result it’s ok. More than Ok I guess. It’s the best i’ve had hoped for. But strangely after I got the result I suddenly wanted it to be better. I think it’s just the human instinct to always want to be better than others. Or is it? Is competition and wanting to win a good thing? Is ambition a good thing? Does academic result mean everything? (Lots of ppl will say that it doesn’t. But if you do a reality check, the answer is that YES it is everything.)
I think I’m lucky. I’m a terribly blessed person, and I don’t think I know the value of really working hard to achieve your goals. I seldom have personal goals or ambition. Is that a bad thing?
Probably I’d yes at this point in time. I want to know what I want to do. I think I know, but I’m not sure. Ambivalent. I’ve had to choose between 2 choices rather often lately. and i would never know which one to pick. (both? haha!)
Should you go for things that you are already familiar with? or should you go to the unchartered land, unknown but might offer so much more?
Should you randomly follow your instinct, or calculate throughly using your brain?
sleepy.
hm. the last time i blogged was 4 weeks before prelims. Here i am now, 17+ hrs before the release of A lvl result. How time flies.
Looking back, i probably regret not putting in much effort in my j1 year (and half of the j2 year actually, haha..), and for not caring enough for gp. haha. we’ll see tmr how it all turns out to be. and the thing is, i’m still rather optimistic abt my result. which is bad. so bad. coz if it doesn’t turn out so well i’ll just freak out. i dun have a Plan B. wait. I dun even have plan A yet. haha.
yups. lets try to recall what I did since the previous post.
guitar seniors farewell. that was fun.. running around Yu ping’s condo. and eat steamboat. MLDDS senior’s farewell was fun as well. although not so many ppl.. but food was good. and karaoke was rather fun. haha.
studying for prelims. I can’t actually remb whether I studied much. quite sure I did quite a lot of chem and left bio to the very last minute. haha.
various IP outings, celebrating birthdays. those were FUN! hehe. we never get our shirt.. hmmm…
staying at hostel, trying to study before A’s.. I though that’s the most boring time ever.. I knew that I should study, but at the same time having all day to study just makes me feel that i have so much time. haha. dun think i did much. seriously. remb doing chem tys mcqs. and panicking the night before econs coz i havent done so many standard essays.
After A’s was madness shopping for prom. hahaha. went out like almost everyday. now thinking about it, prom was rather overrated. but yeah, the dressing up and taking picture part was fun. oh went to malaysia for a few days. basically just went shopping. and eating GOOD food. haha.
prom was FUN. (although i was rather late). everyone was so PRETTY/dressed up. took many2 pictures. after that went ard clarke quay with the class. hmmm maybe i should have come for after prom..
yups. that’s my life from 30 July to 4Dec 2007. shall post more later
