Archive for July, 2006

ngaco…

Thursday, July 20th, 2006

The Bottom Line

All your attention should be aimed at your future. Start making those plans now.

In Detail

Lately you’ve become so engrossed in the exciting changes going on in your life that you may be missing some long-range opportunities. Try to move your focus away from current tasks and toward what’s left to tackle on your ambitious to-do list. It’s time to think about your future — and start laying the groundwork for the new direction you want to take. The scope doesn’t have to be too wide — just contemplate where you’d like to be by the end of the year.

OMG, the fact that horoscopes might be true sometimes just scares me.. like this one.. well.. it’s definitely the kind of advice i need right now.. tp apparently gw gak look forward to the future.. and i simply not interested in the future.. even though i’m supposed to be making LOTS of plans for the future.. tapi somehow kaya gk ada semangat and gk tertarik sm sekali gitu.. duh gmn seh… here i am complaining to myself for the millionth time..

yes i might be "engrossed in the EXCITING changes" tapi ternyata changesnya tuh gak terlalu exciting.. hm.. and i’m supposed to be "moving my focus away from current tasks and toward what’s left to tackle on my ambitious to-do list". haiz… duh ini semua gara2 the ambitious to-do list.. kenapa jadi org gk pernah puas dgn apa yg dipunyai.. kenapa harus selalu pingin lebih.. tp begitu dah dapet.. you might come to realise that you’d rather have that old dirty corner under the staircase than the aircon room with computer… dan gw uda menyadari kalo itu bener2 betul banget.. haiz.. tp terlambat.. haha… bego gitu…

gak tau mungkin ini cuman pikiran jelek sesaat aja.. tp.. keliatannya gk bakal gampang ilang.. kemaren bener2 sedih bgt.. as in gw benernya seh gak bakal k mana2.. tp sedih aja gitu.. uda kebiasa banget.. terus kayanya sekarang gak bisa maen2 lagi.. gk bisa terlalu sering dateng ke cage (a v iconic place indeed)… duh.. kenapa gw gak nyadar dari awal2 gitu… oh me and my ambition! parah bgt seh…

ok, once agn according to e horoscope, "It’s time to think about your future — and start laying the groundwork for the new direction you want to take. " tapi apparently the new direction tuh bukan yg gw mau take.. terus gmn dunk???? and apparently also, where i’d like to be by the end of this year gak ada di route yang gw ambil sekarang.. parah… salah gw sendiri seh.. and gak mungkin bisa berubah.. paling2 gw cm bisa bilangin diri sendiri, ini salah loe, pokoknya sekarang kerjain aja apa yg ada sekarang and jangan mikirin yg uda lewat… nah tp kan gw lebih suka mikirn yg udah lewat… gmn dunk…

mungkin hati lebih penting dari kepala… soalnya kl cm penting di kepala doang, hati gk mau bikin, gk bisa jalan.. kl dari hati.. walaupun keliatannya gk sebagus kalo ikut kepala, paling ngga sesuai dgn keinginan hati, jd senang gembira and bisa memperbaiki keadaan dengan menggunakan kepala.. haha….

gw ngaco yah… gj bgt.. gk tau napa bisa ampe kaya gini… hm… benernya tau seh, cuman gak mau ngakuin aja… haha..

just complaining to myself..

Sunday, July 9th, 2006

hope no one is offended by my previous post..

anyway.. this blog is rather deserted.. coz for a few weeks was drawn by the convinience of using my msn space..

yeah.. yesterday was weird.. i dunno la.. maybe we just practised too long.. or it might just be the result of all the things that have accumulated over the months.. haiz.. dunno la.. i feel i’m quite selfish.. and fake sometimes.. but there are nice times as well.. oh enough of this thing, it’s inevitable anyway.. might as well live with it and be happy=)

talking about being happy.. guess it’s the most important thing in life.. is it? then why are so many ppl are so ambitious about everything? confused now.. when there is an incident that requires one to choose whether to follow one’s head or heart, which should one choose? some ppl say, strike a balance.. but sometimes the choice is not flexible.. so what to do? follow the heart with a risk of not getting the great things that lie ahead (eg. go back to hometown instead of getting lots of money.. just a simple example) or follow the head and try to burry the will of the heart (eg. try to love the big city instead of going back to hometown)? i guess most ppl will choose the second one.. they say time will heal all heartache and sooner or later you wil forget those superficial and unimportant ideals… like love for hometown, passion for hobby, etc. i gues the problem with today’s world is that most ppl are too busy pursuing things that are required of them by other ppl or things that will bring glory to them.. not things that they love most.

i dunno how true that is la.. but that’s what i feel. and the sad thing is that i feel i’ve started to do the same thing… haiz… this might be the hundreth time i’m complaining to myself about this "choosing" thing… and i dunno why i still can’t get over it…

so just a simple advise if anyone is bothers to read this.. sometimes it’s best to just follow your heart.. you know yourself best.. instead of getting bigger things but living a life full of regret.

hm…

Saturday, July 8th, 2006

hm… dunno what’s wrong with me.. i wasn’t myself yesterday.. din know that drama practice can be so mentally exhausting.. put in simply, i dun really want to meet a particular person at the moment.. but it’s inevitable.. haiz..