Random thoughts

Hm… yea.. chinese new year holiday.. I suppose it’ll be ending before I start doing anything.. haha… I mean, today is Saturday night already.. I am supposed to start doing things for guitar concert, thinking about BC stuff, and maybe do my maths and chem tutorial? And there’s econs as well.. haha… but until now, I’m still slacking here.. writing useless things..

Aniwae, went out like the whole day yesterday.. there’s Chinese new year celebration in school in the morning.. watched the NJ superstar.. then went out to eat sushi with the IP ppl… too bad there wasn’t buffet at that time.. but it’s still nice… yey! After that went to far east for a while, and bought earrings! Can’t resist the temptation.. hahaha..

In the afternoon went back to hostel and slept for abt two hrs.. then went out agn with kristy.. and we watched MOCCA!!!! THEY ARE SOOOOO GOOD! I think this concert is better than last year.. they’re really cool la… thinking of doing some of their song for guitar concert.. and I want their new CD! What I like from them is that they have their own style… and it’s quite different from other bands.. true, it gets boring in some songs, coz they al sound alike, but in some others, the rhythm and chord progression is sooo good! Like in the song “Me and My Boyfriend”, from the fast beat suddenly they change to reggae, and they did these things very smoothly… and I particularly like the song “Friends”, coz I think their coordination is very good. If one of the band member came in late just for a little bit, it’ll be so obvious.. but they all were just perfect..

INDO MODE:

Hua…… bener2 gak tau mau ngapain….. kemaren mocca bener2 keren dah… jd pingin main band kaya gitu…. Yg biking gw paling kagum tuh kerjasama bandnya… mereka kompak bgt gitu..

Kembali ke topic utama, saya tidak tahu mau ngapain. Tau2 ngerasa sepi, gak ada orang2 di cluster.

Kan

biasanya selalu bisa ke kamar sebelah gitu… haha..

Oh, tiba2 sadar, kenapa tiap malem taon baru gw selalu suram ya? Besok

kan

imlek gitu.. kemaren waktu mau taun baru juga ngerasa suram… Hm… ada apa gerangan? Gw gak mau taun baru cepet2 kali ya.. kan ada orang2 yang selalu pingin cepet2 taun baru, pingin cepet2 gede, pingin cepet2 lulus sekolah, pingin cepet2 nikah (ada gk seh? Haha!), pingin cepet2 punya anak (???), pokoknya pingin cepet2 semuanya lah… Tapi kalo dipikir2 ngapain juga mau cepet2? Dulu waktu kecil gw takut banget jadi gede.. hahaha… and sampe sekarang juga masih takut kok jadi dewasa…

pinginnya sekolah aja terus.. gk usah pusing… paling pusing juga mikirin gimana caranya ngerjain maths tutorial no. 3 (basic mastery aja gw gk tau ngerjainnya! Parah…), ato pusing mikirin gimana caranya ngegambar glucose ama glycosidic bond. Kl cuma gitu

kan

tanya guru ato temen juga beres. Kl ulangan gk bisa ngerjain paling juga dapet jelek. Kalo ada jawaban yang salah juga bakal dibilangin gimana benernya. Tuh

kan

, sekolah tuh enak banget!

Kalo uda kerja coba.. salah ngitung duit 500 rupiah aja bisa parah. Dateng telat bisa langsung dipecat. Salah ngomong bisa dikira bermaksud ngebohong. Apalagi kl jadi dokter.. salah ngasih obat penyakit orang bukannya sehat malah kumat, untung2 kl orangnya gk mati.. (oops!)

Kenapa gw jd gak jelas gini ya… yah.. karena tidak mungkin menghentikan waktu, lebih baik menikmati saat2 sekarang. Dan menggunakan waktu sebaik2nya! contohnya ngerjain tutorial daripada nulis hal2 gk jelas gini…

15 menit lagi jam 12 malam.

lagi males ngapa2in. dari tadi cuman baca buku, makan mochi. yang rasa green tea beneran enak lho! ada yg mau pesen mochi buat valentine’s day? yang red bean warnanya merah gitu. tapi mana ada orang valentine ngasi mochi ya? kl mau mulai tren baru bole juga seh. kan asyik kalo kadang2 mulai sesuatu yang baru, daripada ngikutin orang lain terus. iya kalo yang diikutin bener. kalo nggak? repot! makanya jadi orang harus bisa mikir sendiri. haha. kaya May Kasahara (Murakami, wind-up bird chronicles).

akhirya selesai juga ngebaca buku itu. tapi tetep merasa aneh. dan ahirnya juga masih aneh. ada gitu ya orang ngarang buku kaya gitu. ato gw aja yg gk ngerti. tapi kan paling ngga gw jujur kl gk ngerti. sekarang juga banyak orang2 yg suka sok2 ngerti padahal gk tau apa2.

ah udah ah ngantuk.

yea… guess the "real" JC life has just begun.. this is my third year in NJ.. haha.. weird huh, we are the first ppl who actually have the third year.. yups.. but got a feeling this year things are going to be different.. one example will be the TIMETABLE!

i know i shouldn’t complain… mine is better than other ppl.. and i really feel sorry for the maths teachers… i’m very2 sure they had real tough time doing the timetable.. but……….. one fact remains.. that my timetable still sucks.. haha..

Mon : 1630 —– got guitar right after that…

Tue : 1720 (including 4 free periods before lunch!)

Wed : 1510 (same thing for everyone, and got guitar after that…)

Thurs : 1540 (my EARLIEST day! wow…)

Fri : 1720 (what a nice way to end the week..)

apart from that, currently we still dun have any bio lectures.. coz the teachers can’t find a common slot for everyone.. guess it’ll be at the end of one of the days..

yesterday had econs tutorial.. i felt so dumb.. we only did two true or false questions.. and i didn’t even get them correct.. haha! econs will be quite a challenge i suppose.. and had maths tutorial also… sometimes i just feel so discouraged.. i’m always a bit slow for maths.. haiz.. guess i just have to practie more..

but niwaez.. chinese new year coming.. it only means one thing : holiday!

kira2 sejam yang lalu udara panas banget.. matahari juga masi bersinar cerah, terlalu cerah malahan, sampai terasa gerah.. terus tau2.. HUJAN! yes, hujan.. DERAS! guntur, kilat, halilintar, petir, semuanya aja ada… keras banget lagi… terus gak lama, ujan berhenti.. habis hujan gini udara jadi sejuk dah.. enak.. dingin2…

jadi pingin stay di kamar, di bawah selimut, baca buku Harumi Murasaki (bener gk seh namanya?) yg udah dibaca sejak 2 minggu lalu tapi gk abis2.. buku itu bener2 aneh.. ceritanya bener2 aneh.. ada sumur, perang, kucing, prostitute (nah lho??), pabrik wig, Malta Kano, Nutmeg Akasaka, telepon, wind-up bird… semuanya dalem satu cerita.. lebih anehnya lagi, gw pingin terus ngebaca soalnya gw pingin tahu apa endingnya juga bakal aneh! haha…

kembali ke topik hujan.. hm.. setelah gw nulis hujannya berhenti dan sejuk, kenapa malah hujan lagi ya??? well, alam memang bener2 pengertian.. cocok banget.. habis cerah terus hujan… tapi kl gini kan gk enak.. pas lagi cerah kan uda ngerasa senang ceria gitu, eh tau2 ujan…. memang gak ada yang konstan di dunia ini.. tuh kan, by the time gw selesai nulis satu paragraf, hujannya uda mau berhenti lagi…

parah deh… kenapa jadi membingungkan gini ya?

oh.. currently trying to read about blod clotting.. coz tml we’ll be having blood and heme lecture for biomed quiz.. this is the introduction:

hm.. then it goes on and on about all the intrinsic and extrinsic and all the factors.. and this is just a small part of the whole topic..

I really dunno whether i can survive tml.. hahaha.. 4 hrs of lecture every saturday, and tml will only be my second lecture…

Guess i should start thinking of what i really want to do.. I always want to do lots of things.. maybe sometimes it’s not good.. coz that means i’ll have less time for myself.. and for my studies.. never really thought of it seriously coz in IP1 and IP2 it’s quite slack lar… even during assesment week i still can do other things… but this JC stuff is getting quite scary.. I’ve already gotten tutorial for every subject that i take.. currently it’s still v manageble.. considering we haven’t gotten the real timetable yet… and we’re still revising last year’s stuff.. but it’ll b worse later i guess..

I suppose i’ll just have to work harder if i want to do all the things i want to do.. hahaha.. and i dun want to let anyone, esp myself down.. i suppose once i got into something i have to commit to it.. no matter what other commitments i have.. haha.. coz i choose to do it.. and it’s my responsibility..

hm.. just writing this for myself actually…….

Yups.. supposed to be first day of school after orientation.. but got no lesson..

yea.. orientation was fun, esp the last two days.. The station games.. cheering session.. playing basketball before the dance party.. and the dance itself.. It ended ard 10 on Friday.. then went to Macs at KAP with ip03 ppl.. went back at almost

midnight

.. then the next morning went to school at

8am

for biomed quiz.. hm.. I have a very strong feeling that I won’t be able to understand half of the things they’re saying..

Oh and Saturday night had a v interesting BC meeting… quite sad actually that this happens.. just hope that things will get back to normal.. hm.. gk pernah nyangka kl ak ternyata gk tau apa2 tentang org laen… I mean.. gk nyangka dya bisa mikir ampe kaya gitu.. memang bener sih itu buat kebaikan kita, tp

kan

gk perlu mikir ampe kaya gitu.. I dunno.. I always believe to in seeing everything from it’s positive side.. and about the discussion and voting.. well.. thankfully I didn’t have to vote.. It had bothered me enough to listen to them for almost 2 hrs “discussing” the same thing over and over agn.. was quite scary actually.. luckily nothing happened.. and what has to be done is done.. I guess everyone just have to look back.. why are we doing all these things? Why do we believe so much? I hope they don’t forget that all of us are here together.. as one “family”.. haha… well guess it’s a human nature to have ego.. tapi kl loe bener2 mau yg terbaik buat semua org gk bole cuman mikirin sekelompok org doang donk…

Haha I guess no one knows what I’m talking abt here..

Today had guitar orientation! At last it’s over(actually it’s just the beginning, still need to plan for future pratices, haha!). It didn’t turn out as smooth as I’ve expected.. partly my fault.. not to think of it carefully yesterday.. luckily the guys are so responsible.. and they came out with the game as well.. Overall I suppose it’s quite ok.. hope everyone had FUN!!! I suppose our members had fun teaching the J1s as well.. Hm.. Come to think of it, I realize I really enjoy coming for guitar.. v lucky last time I didn’t get in to choir.. haha.. not to say that choir won’t b fun.. but yeah.. I’m just glad I’m in guitar..

hua!!!!!!!! sakit GIGI!!!!!!! dunno what’s wrong, but it’s been aching since sunday night.. oh.. damn! it’s really irritating la…. duh.. pengin dicabut aja neh gigi sialan… hua……. made appoinment in the school dental centre, but they’re only free next monday… NEXT MONDAY!!!! i think i’m going to die first…

haha

so basically here I am, trying to ignore this weird feelings from my teeth.. anyone knows cheap dental clinic in singapore????? I dun want to pay 50 bucks or more for this stupid tooth.. but i really want to get rid of it!!! oh….

Yey! Orientation is finally getting quite fun.. The IP ppl is mixed with J1 classes, and I got to 06SO6.. I think the class is great! Haha.. got to know some new friends today, and they all seem to be v fun.. some girls are quite enthu actually.. yea.. I suppose this is what orientation is all about, getting to know new ppl and have fun with new friends.. not trying to pon the orientation program.. haha.. Well, hope I can get to know more of the class ppl, coz I still don’t get some of their names.. I dunno la.. I was just with them for one day, but I got this feeling that I might miss the class when orientation ends.. yea..

Just came back from school ard 7, got guitar… then sat ard with the IP “kids” until 2230.. haha.. talked about A LOT of stuff.. yea.. we just talked and talked and talked more…

Suram.. ujan seharian bener2 gk berheti… dari td pagi.. wkt kebangun jan 6 lebih.. ampe sekarang juga masi ujan… Tuhan lg nangisin keadaan dunia yg kacau balau gak karuan ini kali ya.. haha.. apaan seh gw sok tau aja… ato mungkin Dia malah lagi ngasih berkat? biar gak ada kekeringan dan kelaparan kaya di Irian itu.. moga2 gitu deh.. and moga2 di indo ujan gk terlalu gede juga… ntar malah banjir lagi.. jadi tsunami baru.. hm gk ada hubungannya seh tsunami ma banjir, tp kan air2 gitu..

gila beneran tiap hari ujan.. orang lagi asyik2 lari ujan.. lg mo ke greja ujan.. mo ke skul ujan.. lg mass dance ujan.. mo ngeringin sepatu yg baru dicuci ujan.. minggu lalu mo amazing race d hostel ujan.. kemaren lg di nanyang juga ujan.. ampe gk pulang2, padahal uda takut ketaun matron d sana.. ntar gw dipanggilin polisi gk lucu kali..

paling2 kl ujan jadi tidur doang.. and makan.. abis itu tidur lagi.. bangun tidur gk ada kerjaan makan lagi… terus tidur lagi.. begitu bangun dah berubah wujud jd kebo bisa2.. haha.. salah siapa d hostel ada blue tea coba.. makanan tinggal berapa langkah gitu..

gara2 ujan juga kaos kaki jd cepet bau.. sepatu2 basah.. pake sandal jepit juga basah, malah gampang kepleset (apa seh bahasa indonya kepleset? ada gk ya?)

gila gara2 ujan ampe mood gw jd ikutan ujan juga neh.. padahal kan gk ada waktu buat basah2an and suram2an.. many things to be done.. gara2 meeting kemaren gw jd sadar.. semua orang uda kerja mati2an and tidur cm 4 jam waktu gw liburan.. and ampe sekarang mreka masi bener2 konsisten.. padahal ini kan bukan urusan mreka.. HCIBS Resident Tutors are the most dedicated people I know.. seriously.. karena itu, gw gk ada watu buat hujan dah suram..

gimana kl besok cerah aja? biar gw jd ikut terang benderang seprti bintang. eh tp kl dipikir lagi enakan jd matahari aja d.. bintang tuh memang keliatannya bagus, tp kan cuman bisa diiat doang.. gk kaya matahari yg bisa ngasih energi ke bumi.. haha…

NJC orientation 2006 is starting to be fun.. at last……. after few days of talks.. and talks and more talks.. today we had cheers and MASS DANCE!!! yey! hahaha….

I’m seriously upside down now..

really got no clue, what i should do?

keliatannya gk ada deh..

somehow.. someway..

maybe not.. haha..

just talking to myself here.. yeah.. currently reading "supernova: akar" again.. kita memang tak pernah tahu apa yang dirindukan sampai sesuatu itu tiba di depan mata.. bener gak seh??? bener kali ya? tau ah.. bodo amat! bukan urusan gw.. i’ve got other things, better things to do la.. and i know i’ll be able to do those things.. as long as i dun slack around (that’s what i’m doing now..) haha.. yea..

hm.. forgot that i’ve never made any new year’s resolution.. well here we go..

I promise I will not let myself down.

yups that’s it.. If i know what i want and what i need to do to get there, then there’s only one way to achieve it.. by doing things.. and do it now!