Random thoughts

haha.. watching Channel News Asia now.. about this artist who paints dots, lines and places.. oh and now is another person, opera conductor…quite interesting..

went running this morning.. woke up at 6.30, instead of sleeping again i put on my running shoes and went to to the track. It’s a nice feeling, no one else was there and you just run.. it’s just me against the track… hahaha.. well .. it feels nice after you run.. your body just feels very light.. and after you run many rounds, you feel that you can achieve anything in the world.. haha.. but a lot of things in this world is not like what we expected.

there are just times when you feel that everything is going well and your dream is just about to come true something will come and you suddenly find that everything you’ve wished for will never come true.. The reality can be cruel sometimes. and the world is not as perfect as you think. But i guess just we should just hang on there, try not to let go.. Don’t let go of your dreams, coz they are the beginning of big future.. however, if you really have to let go, just let it go and let it be.. It does not mean it’s the end of the world. At least you know you’ve tried you best and that’s what matter the most. It is the effort, not the result that counts.. There is still so much out there waiting for you..

haha.. dunno what i’m talking about.. just think that’s it’s not easy sometimes.. we can only EXPECT FOR THE UNEXPECTED. satu hal yang pasti di dunia ini hanyalah ketidakpastian… (supernova)

I feel tired now.. got lots of things to do.. lots of things in my mind.. this is just one the time when i can’t be bothered to do anything.. and i start thinking about all those funny questions lyk why i should go to school and why i should do so many posters… hahaha… i guess i just need something to motivate me.. but now i dunno what i’m doin all of these for..

there are times i feel like letting go and giving up, but i know i shouldn’t! i’ve taken the responsibility and i’m not letting anyone, especially myself, down.. feels stupid, talking to myself lyk this haha.. yups WHEN THE GOING GETS TOUGH THE TOUGH GETS GOING !

just had guitar exco meeting today.. actually we’ve had quite a lot of meetings in these few weeks.. the exco is gr8 and i really dun mind coming for them and coming for cca also.. v fun! guitar concert next year.. guess will b v busy.. but nvm… it’s goin to b lots of fun too!

yups… it is raining agn today.. just like yesterday..

I had to walk in the rain today.. coz i didn’t bring umbrella, again. hahaha.. even though i have two umbrellas in my room now… hm…

was in the bus, just got back from lunch with my bro.. i was so sleepy and the weather was just so nice, so i fell asleep… when i woke up, suddenly realised that i’ve missed the hostel bus stop.. i thought i was somewhere after sixth ave or something… so i crossed the road to take a bus back.. then i found out that i’m actually one bus stop away from the hostel, and there is no bust stop on this side of the road.. the nearest bus stop is the nanyang one… which is v near njc bus stop already… so yeah.. i decided to walk back… while i was walking back, a bus passed by and splashed water on my back… so basically i was walking in the rain, my back was wet, so was my hair, and i was alone… sounds so miserable, hahaha……

wow, time flies.. it’s going to be weekend agn tml.. and this is the end of term 3 week 8.. it’s kinda funny if you think of it.. when i first came i thought that it’s goin to be so boring, stuck in the same school and hostel for 4 years.. and before i even realise it my second year is almost gone.. there’s still so much things i have not done.. lyk going to westmall or some other malls in the other parts of singapore, night safari, going to JB, take piano lesson (dun think i hv the time..), join another cca, going for OBS, try to eat at fish n co or Swensen (haha!)…

well.. must be thankful for everything i’ve got until now..

yesterday was indonesia national day.. MERDEKA!!! hope indo will get better.. went to embassy for the flag raising ceremony.. reminds me of my school back there.. jadi keinget masa2 smp.. haha..

guess gotta be busy this weekend, colours award tomorrow.. go out on saturday wif, do group project and EXCO meeting on sunday… It’s so funny, now i have 3 posters to do, physics, MI and bio..

lots of things coming up in school… got LA advertisment, just did the filming this afternoon.. v tiring… but it’s quite fun though.. then next week have IH essay and have to find newspaper article for malay.. why do i have to take Malay??? then there’s physics poster.. and a 10 pages report for MI, luckily that one is due next term… must start doing stuff. haha… have been too slack these past few days..  dun feel like doing anything now…

went running this morning.. woke up at 6.15 am.. it’s always nice to run in the morning, when the sun haven’t come out yet.. then i can just run slowly, no one else is in the track (other than demmi and andre.. haha..) i always think running is more of a mental exercise rather than physical.. coz when you run it’s up to you whether you want to quit or continue.. when you think you can do it, then you’ll just keep on running and pushing yourself to your limit to achive your goal.. but once you think that you won’t be able to do it.. that’s it. you are not going to reach your goal. hm.. talk so much, but actually i dun run that much also lah… haha..

well, played basketball after that.. the weather was nice coz it wasn’t so sunny.. yups.. today started quite well. hahaha… better then the last few days.. like yesterday, i woke up at 10am hahaha.. i hate waking up late.. it’s so hot..

yeps.. national day ony means one thing: holiday!!! haha.. the celebration in school was not bad, i suppose i could have been more proactive in approaching the elderly,  but i’m not sure whether i’ll be able to talk to them, as in coz all of them seems to b speaking in mandarin.. so i can’t be bothered and today just stood around watching them singing (karaoke) some of them is really quite good you know.. and the funny part was when they ask some of us, the students, to sing with them also.. haha..

then had the celebration in the hostel also.. i think this time our publication was not that strong, i see lots of people coming down without knowing that we’re having a celebration.. oh forgot to mention this in the meeting just now.. we the nj ip had a performance.. not so bad lah.. well guess i shall continue later, want to go sleep already.. today i was in my rom for 10 minutes, then went down to practice, later went up agn to bath for less then 15 minutes and went for the celebration in the hostel.. so yeah.. and we had meeting until 11.30pm.. think i’ll sleep now..

Aseann dance last nite was ok lah.. it wasn’t that fun.. the DJ wasn’t v good, i was so tired coz of my shoes.. stoopid heels haha.. the fun part was burning kristy’s hair.. hahaha… and meeting everyone, my batchmates.. it’s just nice to see all of us dressed up..

i still have lots of things to do.. tml is national day celebration but it seems that i have no idea what’s goin on… maybe i’ve been slacking too much.. should’ve helped them some how.. i didn’t even come to the rehearsal.. maybe i should’ve just come yesterday.. instead of coming for the dance… i should think more abt this kind of stuff, as in things that i’m supossed to be doing.. but i can’t seem to concentrate now.. huh…… and i dun seem to have any luck as well.. haha… i hate myself for being like this… i always believe in miracles, but i dun think it’ll work this time..

i’m sooooooooooooo dumb!!!! hahaha.. but i just can’t help it… must start doing something abt this.. but how??????? shall just not think abt it anymore, there’s nothing i should think about.. hm… ppl must think i’m crazy or sumthin.. haha..

yups.. in the hostel now.. later 4pm got chem test.. but i end at 1.20, so went back to the hostel first… haha.. hope the test will be ok… feel sleepy now.. dun feel lyk goin back to school..

just one more day and its National Day holiday.. haha, quite good coz we’ll have loooooooooong weekend, but actually got things to do lah.. on saturday is asean dance.. haha… KRISTY FOR BUAYI!!! sunday guitar senior’s farewell… oh my god.. it’s soooooooo fast.. can’t believe it’s one year already, and they’re going soon… and we the ip ppl are the only ppl left… so sad….. monday national day celebration in school and hostel.. hope it’ll be a successful one.. they’ve been doing great, planning the rehearsal and all that.. feel quite bad now now coz i haven’t really been helpful… then tuesday got to do WP advertisment.. and wednesday dunno whether i should go to meet the soton ppl.. it’ll be great being together agn, hahahaha… but they’re havin bio lesson..

hm.. that’s abt it for now..